We all have moments in our life and career that are unforgettable, a first kiss, a first love, or your first day on the job. A first for me that is burned deep into my memory is the first time I visited Kink.com to model for the infamous Device Bondage channel to work with John Paul the Pope.
Since it was my first time working for Kink, I wanted to be given the full, hardcore treatment in case it was my only chance to get it. I was not disappointed. JP guided me through three strenuous bondage positions that tested me in more ways than one.
In the first position, I was told to take a seat. My mouth was stuffed with a large red ball gag, my thighs were splayed wide open and shackled with metal restraints to a wooden bondage chair made up of two apple boxes spread far apart from one another and a chair backing made from a wooden post. The post also served as a spot for my wrists to be bound to with metal shackles.
Bound to the chair, naked and drooling, a dildo powered by a fucking machine pumped in and out of me while a magic wand vibrator pressed into my clit mercilessly.
All of this was fairly basic for me, except for the addition of the mousetraps on my nipples. I always find any sort of clamp on my breasts to be crazy painful. And I'm no stranger to pain.
Ass Up
Next, I found myself with my ass up in the air bound to a large wooden box. My ankles were secured in metal restraints to the box with my legs spread and ass in the air while my hands were cuffed down between my legs and my face pressed into the box while JP used a leather flogger on me. This position didn't push me too much, and was probably one of the most pleasurable positions for me!
The Vampire Trap
The final position of the day was definitely the most challenging! It was one of JPs creations called the vampire trap. It's hard to explain, but basically I was splayed out spread eagle with my wrists and ankles cuffed and bolted to the wooden planks of the floor.
Additionally, I was pinned to the ground with several massive wooden spikes that were pressed into various points of my body, and if I moved they would dig into my skin! It was very cool.
Not only was I held down by the wooden spikes but JP whipped out his cattle prod. I was curious about electro play, and I asked for it specifically. JP shocked the bottoms of my feet with it! The whole scene was absolutely wild! I have never experienced something so uniquely agonizing in my life...it was transcendent!
Pain Fascination
I find pain really fascinating because it's not something that most people get to explore. And because well, it hurts, and it can be dangerous. So for a while my goal with BDSM and pain management has been to allow myself to really feel what is happening. I don't need to avoid it, I just need to ride the waves of sensation.
Of course, breathing is a helpful tactic to get to that state of "riding," and so is screaming and crying and giggling and begging! The goal is to let the pain ground you in your body and let it affect you emotionally and physically and then when it's over, release it.
If You Don't Try It, You'll Never Know
You can learn a lot about yourself through kink. During this shoot, I realized that I do not like electro play! But that's how it goes right? You don't know until you try it. I'm glad I tried it though! I think back to that cattle prod experience really fondly!
It was such an amazing experience to get to work with Kink, I have admired them for so long and it was such an honor to work with JP :)
