I get jealous when I see other performers taking more pain than I can take. That's why I waited years for a one on one with JP.
My first Hogtied.com scene with John Paul the Pope was definitely worth the wait. His presence is both caring and intense. The contrast between brutality and compassion makes for a beautiful head fuck.
The premise of the shoot is simple—just have fun! And that's exactly what I do! JP is very creative with his ties and makes sure the model is included in deciding what does or does not happen. I always put in a special request for a rope bondage suspension when I'm performing at Kink and JP made sure it happened.
I am a tight little cocoon of flesh ready for JP to toy with.
Reveling in the Process
The process of being tied up is calm and collected. Once I am lifted into the air it is time to get intense.
In this suspension I am inverted and dangling from the ceiling, all the blood in my body rushing toward my head as my world is flipped. Rope encircles my hips, hugging me tight. With my ankles bound together and my wrists bound behind my back, I am a tight little cocoon of flesh ready for JP to toy with.
The Build Up
JP begins to beat me with different implements like the leather flogger, spiky paddle and that wicked stingy cane, leaving my head swimming. I take a breath and prepare for it to get more challenging.
Accepting the Challenge
The most difficult part of my scene is pushing through to see how much pain I can take. There is plenty of pain to push through on this shoot — from JP pulling on my nipples while I am dangling upside down in a suspension or the intense sensation of being covered in wooden clothespins.
The small but mighty bite of the clothespin shouldn't be underestimated, especially when they cover a freshly beaten chest or trace their way up the tender tissue of my thighs, dangerously close to my cunt. Clothespins even make their way up my neck and face which are covered in drool from the massive ball gag filling my mouth.
The pain is immense but so rewarding. My body is alive, awake, and I am experiencing all of it.
The Power of Breath and Laughter
I process my pain through laughter and breathing during this shoot with JP. When the crop appears, giggling is the only thing to help me through the stinging pain.
When he brings the cane out I immediately begin to panic, but I focus on my breathing. I pay attention to each breath and slowly blow out with each hit. The pain is immense but so rewarding.
My body is alive, awake, and I am experiencing all of it.
Pushing Boundaries
I feel myself approaching my boundaries, the threshold of what I can take. But I love that! I love to push my boundaries with each shoot. Just to see what I can accomplish is an empowering experience, and JP always challenges me.
Looking back at what I am able to take always makes me feel like I'm invincible. It's a wonderful feeling of empowerment and relief, like I just let go of a big weight.
The Satiated Submissive
I always think of myself as stronger after each scene.
I still feel a little jealous when I see other performers take more pain than me. But once I shoot a scene, I feel that I can take my share and I feel fulfilled as a submissive.
Kink production days are always extra special because everyone cares so much about what's being produced and makes sure everyone feels safe and included on set. I am forever grateful for the experience of such intense scenes with such a reputable company. They make me feel safe and excited to explore and push my boundaries.
